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WIELDER
I don't know why,
But I cling to you.
Every word you say,
Everything you do.
I'm distraught when you're hurting,
I'm ravenous when you're hungry.
I breathe in,
Just so you'll have the pleasure of breathing out.
I'm not deluded by your enchantment,
It's merely a glamour.
It's merely a hand-of-sleight,
To cast you in some beautiful light.
Does it disgust you?
My eagerness to please.
Will my vision ever clear?
Or will I forever be on my knees?
I'M SORRY
I don't know why, but I can't say I'm sorry,
Angry, bitter, desperate, hateful - yes.
Those admissions come easy,
Sorry, does not.
I see how I've failed you,
So I will resent how you've failed me.
I'll love you - only after hearing that you'll love me.
I offer nothing, yet ask for everything in return.
I don't know why, but I can't say I'm sorry
A deed I can't resign myself to.
I wish I wasn't so fragile, wish I wasn't so naive,
I wish I could tell you that I'm ...
INSIGHTS
Having a dream is a dangerous sport,
Whether to catch it, or to let it slip away.
Time is confusing; passing by so slowly for some,
Me - it chases at a run.
Wanting my inspiration to last my lifetime,
Yet fearing I'll be severed from my life-line.
Writing must be my destiny,
But my pen has run away from me.
Flowing like rain they used to be,
Now sentences have eluded me.
Not wanting to bribe or coerce,
But I'll pay dearly to whomever finds my talent first.
Relying on myself has taken too much time,
There's no help for writing the next line.
Time will tell if I've endured,
Beyond the survival of my written word.
FACES
Yes I have one,
But it's always changing.
Making it hard to see who I am.
An unwilling chameleon.
I want to fall for you gently like a snow flake.
Care to catch me on your tongue?
Could you really care for someone like me?
Someone who would always be a stranger.
My blood can boil,
Then I'm purring like a kitten on your lap.
I'm afraid of the monster under my bed,
Yet I never back down from a fight.
My contraditions can't be helped.
The confusion becomes a drug.
Should I be saved, or left to fend for myself?
Whatever my destiny, I can't see it being dull.
SHE
She hides at the entrance of peace,
Watching everyone enter in,
She brushes off a tear from her cheek,
She wonder’s if she’ll ever find a way inside.
She hears a small voice urging her to listen,
She struggles to understand its meaning,
This voice begins to teach her things,
Over time her strength increases.
This voice tells her about confidence and acceptance,
She learns how to love, and how to be loved,
The voice shows her why she should be proud,
She’s taught to raise her head up high.
She still goes back to the entrance to watch,
She starts seeing new things,
The entrance is no longer so far away,
The voice tells her that it’s time.
She walks towards inner peace,
She remembers to look in the shadows,
She sees someone hiding there,
She takes the girl by the hand, and teaches her how to get inside.
ANGER
Sorry for my anger,
Sorry for my rage,
But I know I will explode,
If I’m kept inside this cage.
I’ve endured long enough,
I’m releasing all my pain,
I’ve found the strength to stand,
I’m giving up my shame.
Don’t mistake it for arrogance,
Just trying to even the score,
Get used to the fact,
I’m not a passive child anymore.
The demon’s are gone,
My thoughts are strictly mine,
There’s no holding back,
I’m through with wasted time.
SEARCHING
Searching for words,
I get so unraveled.
Trying to speak of,
The emotional roads I’ve traveled.
None have been easy,
My journey’s against the wind.
Though my strength will continue,
My anger has me pinned.
I think I’ve found someone,
Who’ll help carry my load.
Still, a piece of me is missing,
The world feels so cold.
I’M STANDING
I’m standing
After the smoke has cleared.
The pain’s finally gone.
I looked up to the sky,
To hear a new song.
I’m standing
My choices are made,
The peace I’ve decided.
Freedom is near,
Every fear has subsided.
I’m standing
My first time seeing clear,
The good in who I am.
Trusting in everything I do,
Knowing that I always can.
I’m standing
ME
Play with me,
Teach me things I never knew,
Open up the world to me.
Talk to me,
Tell me stories of ancient times,
Let the words be magical.
Hold me,
Protect me in your arms,
So I can feel happiness forever.
SPIRITS
The spirits are calling,
Can you hear them?
Guiding you on your journey.
The spirits are talking,
Listen to what they tell you.
They speak of warmth and caring.
The spirits are dancing,
Can you move the way they do?
Their grace cannot be equaled.
THINGS
Night
Darkness and mystery
My finest hour
Moon
Dangerous and glowing
My new home
Shadows
Spooky and leering
My only friends
REVELATIONS
Wait a minute,
Stop and think,
What this choice,
Has made you.
You destroyed a trust,
You killed my faith,
I hope you can see why,
I can’t have you in my life.
I needed to mean more to you,
Now I need to be free,
You had your opportunity,
But this could never last.
So now we part,
Not on necessarily good terms,
Things can’t be the same,
You have obviously viciously changed.
YOU
I look out my window,
In search of a view.
The setting sun tries to console me,
But I continue to think of you.
I believed you were my hero,
You said you would always care.
What was going on inside of me?
I trusted you to always be there.
The timing was all wrong,
I was so young and naive.
I could have been promised the world,
I was so willing to believe.
I suppose I’m all grown up now,
I can say I survived it all.
Now that the sun has set,
I’ll sit and wait, in-case you call.
LAND -MINE!
Land- mine!
Ready for a victim.
Patiently waiting to explode.
As of today, I’ve had enough.
All the stares,
And the snickers after I’ve walked by.
Treating me like a child.
It must stop now!
Beware.
Land-mine!
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